Freedom, baby!

The past month has truly been amazing.

After such a long time, I’ve finally felt like a woman again – sexy, desirable and wanted. Man, it felt so damn good. I met someone new. We have an amazing chemistry and attraction and had a lot of fun together. He’s my type of man – confident, sexy, funny and charismatic.

He made me feel so very special in this short period of time we have been dating, and for that I’m really grateful. It’s so easy for me to be swept away easily, being led by my desire and passion, however, I know this is not the right way, and for the first time in my life, I’m willing to do things differently. Or at least try 😉

I’m very easily swept and led by my desire and passion. I want to be more calculated and cautious this time. I don’t want to fall for the first guy I meet, I don’t want to build fantasies in my head that he’s the one, because I simply can’t know that after such a short period. I do want to continue to have fun and explore more possibilities. I want to take things lightly, go out, have fun, allow my drive and passion to lead me in a fun way.

I want this feeling to last. It has been shut for so many years, and it just feels so good to be alive again. It’s hard to tell what the future holds for me, but at this point, I’m just happy with the way things are ; With being my true self again, enjoying being a woman and allowing myself to let loose.

Janis Joplin

Freedom’s just another word for nothing left to lose

Weekly Photo Challenge: Evanescent

Nowadays, happiness is evanescent to me… it comes and goes and never stays for too long. When I see little things that fuel my mind and bring happiness to my heart, I usually try to capture them with my phone, as a reminder for hope.

Just Like this little flower that we planted on Independence Day while visiting the farm. Every now and then it grows a little and then withers, fragile just like myself.

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I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all Joni Mitchell