Trauma is exhausting

Draining my energy

Sucking my vitality

Leaving me shaky and weak


I can see the progress

Not playing games with death

Not numbing the pain with artificial aid

I am present but my body won’t adjust to the change


It’s been such a long journey

And the end is yet to be seen

I need my body again

I need strength

Weekly Photo Challenge: Wanderlust

I love travelling, it’s actually one of my biggest passions. I enjoy exploring new places, and experiencing new cultures – different languages, foods, smells and people.

I only travelled thus far to Europe, but have many destination on my wishlist, including South Africa, Canada and more.

My last trip was to Berlin in December. I love Berlin and it wasn’t my first time, however this trip was just bad. In fact, it was the beginning of the end…

Sometimes you don’t have to travel abroad to satisfy your wanderlust – beautiful places are just around the corner, like this beautiful forest in the country side.


It was such a lovely Winter day with my dear family.


My Quiet Saturday

Quiet Saturday by myself

Enjoying the silence, missing her noise

Reading old letters

Validating feelings that someone tried to take away from me

Somehow even enjoying this early summer warmth

Feeling at ease

Missing love and passion

Missing feeling worthy and needed

At peace with myself, even if just for a moment.

Madness Episode 26


Housewarming party by the pool

Jumping on the tables

Running around like a wounded animal

The look of embarrassment in their eyes

I am caught in a madness episode

Bleeding my way out to the safe room

Wearing my straitjacket

Shouting my heart out

Screaming like there is no tomorrow

The look of despair in their eyes

Throwing the newspaper on her face


I want to crawl into the hole

Helplessness in their eyes

Sadness in mine

Realising there is no way out